Day 29

Mood has been stable lately,  but my fear of blood and needles has resurfaced.  Maybe because it’s almost my dad’s birthday, so I remember things from before: the constant bleeding, the stench of old blood, the smell of dialysate, etc. 

I am happy as of late, and it scares me. I am scared that one day I just won’t feel happy anymore, that everything will fall apart and I would be left as empty as I was before.

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